Our Unrealized Potential of Universal Love
“When the family is destroyed the eternal family laws are lost, and when the law is lost, lawlessness overwhelms the whole family.” ~ Krishna to Arjuna in The Bhagavad Gita
Words are futile when children die. As fathers we seek retribution, as mothers, we mourn for their souls, as bystanders we try to imagine what such a loss must feel like, and as lawmakers, physicians and researchers we try to affect the future in ways that save us from this grief.
Still, there is a compelling need to find meaning in all that comes and so, it is our duty to include the purpose that is not readily available when captive in the stillness of grief or the action of anger or rage, at least within those momentary pockets of faith that cause us to look within and imagine.
As my children are safe, it is an experience that I am grateful not to have known in this lifetime - however, there is an inner child for whom I still grieve: that carefree seven-year-old that climbed trees and was chosen first for kickball and who couldn't stop taking things out of the trash because they glistened with such purpose and potential.
She was unaware - unaware of anything that was waiting for her in the future, unaware of any idea of who she should be or of her True Identity; she was just Being it! In this way, she was pure - empty of the ingredients like shame and judgment that would come together as fear.
One day I was that seven year old and the next I wasn't.
And, a part of me is still grieving her death - the part that doesn't care about what others might think or what they might imagine or what they might say - for her message far exceeds any limitation/imitation of the mind - any measurement, any contrast, any fear, any anxiety, even any joy...
What was lost must be found.
We find the lost Truth of our Innocence through the breadcrumbs of Witness and presence that we leave ourselves to find at those moments when we are ready to act - through the words we write and share that become memories and which project belief - those that we stumble upon and polish off - those that are forever glued to adhesive photo pages - and those that we transform through forgiveness, seeking visions of atonement and wholeness.
We find Truth by turning inward and declaring, "Onward! Show me! I am ready to take a step back from this idea, this identity, this fight, this cause so that I can be led by YOU!"
And when we can (for this is an ability), we rise to our duty and connect with purpose and we take action.
And so, from this perspective, from the Wholeness of LOVE, when souls choose a life that takes them onto the battlefield - warriors, courageous, and dutifully innocent - they are empowered with a purpose beyond our understanding.
If they were not, what meaning would this death allow and how could we go on?
For these lives to have meaning, for their souls to be freed, we must fight with the deepest purpose! And that purpose cannot solely serve our self-interest - not in proving some ideology, philosophy, theosophy - this action is NOT in the interest of the mind - not for any religious idea or political power - it is for the Soul Purpose of the Heart - for LOVE of ALL MANKIND.
And so, we must fight for the right to be whole, to receive that which we need to make the choices that can serve our Soul. We must fight with our Hearts, not with our bodies and ideas, "If you buy me you will be happy," this idea that what I have that will fix you...
These children were the bravest warriors! Arjuna and Krishna on the battlefield!
There are not children who have sacrificed themselves for the salvation of the world. No! Their ego minds and innocent bodies did not choose - would not choose such a thing ... to die in an instant of fear with the sounds and force of gunshots running through them. No! There is no explanation or reason or excuse or cause that can relieve the value they offered their families.
To be "focused on the soul called _____," - to make that soul a martyr or to focus on the personality is to diminish the power and larger scope of the soul. In Seat of the Soul, Gary Zukov pointed out, "The soul is a great deal more than the personality". The power of this soul that came to this earth to be with us, taking the form of is much more than it appears, but first, we must honor the duty of its role to its family.
And I see this daily with my dad - how he can't let go of the body of my mother. How when he looks, he sees a space without her rather than a space filled with her - fearful that if he loses touch with her he will fall into the abyss. And this is purgatory, this suffering, for both of us. He, unaware, and I, acutely aware ... in the same space!
And if I judge him, try to change him, I deny him of his Soul process. So, the best I can do is honor his journey, be Witness to my own work when Father triggers my need for validation, and rise to the duty of daughter.
This was what my mother was pointing toward during her last moments of awareness ... telling me to take care of my father. Yes, it was a role of sorts, patriarchal fundamentalism spilling into her hospital bed, but also, Krishna reminding me, Arjuna, that I chose this form, that I have a duty to perform the duties of this form, and that I do them with the deepest kindness, honor, and humility, to be brave.
This realization, this epiphany, didn't happen before this very moment. Only as I opened up space from what I wanted to say in order to say what needed to be said did the words rise to meet the mind.
And so, this loving deep down voice is calling us "to fight with weapons that are not of this world" Corinthians 10:3 - to move beyond those that are created and actioned by the mind/body and to allow a higher power to choose these words and actions with care.